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OK, so I did something I don’t normally do: I confronted someone in the Body over what I considered maltreatment toward me.

Interesting, to say the least.  It gave me a healthy infusion of confidence.  I think I did it while staying in the Love of God.

Mind you, I had no designs on ever mentioning this maltreatment, just wanted to silently slip away, stay in prayer over the situation and roll the care of it over onto God.  Nothing more.

Something (SomeOne, Holy Spirit, I discern) encouraged me to explain, to vent, as it were, in a loving way (thank You, Jesus), just to do a quick “reality check”.  Just to ensure that I was not in error, not being hypersensitive.  I brought it to my Father and also to a spiritual mentor who is prophetic.  They both advised me to confront the issue with this person, for their own good primarily.   I agreed.

Taking my mentor’s suggestion, and after much prayer for Holy Spirit’s unction and heavy influence of His Love, I contacted the person, voiced my concerns about the pattern of “frosty” behavior from them toward me, and then opened the door for clarification, as I said that I could have been wrong.  Let us reason together before parting ways, I said.

I got the expected response.

“Its completely not true.. I just don’t know you.. I was preoccupied.. it takes a while to warm up to people unlike my compadres..”, etc (paraphrased).

I replied advising that its exactly because we just met that I was perplexed by their behavior toward me, which began seemingly without cause.  Again, I asked if I had offended them, or was there some characteristic of mine that was aversive/abrasive to them.  I also had to reiterate that this was a pattern, citing examples of how not only my contact info, but my very name, was “forgotten”, and , “now I have your personal email address” was a puzzling thing to say, since I have received several personal emails directly from this person to my personal email address since about October, 2008, and have submitted all my other contact info repeatedly online, in application forms, on sign-in sheets, et al.

I got no reply back to that.

And so it goes.

I will stay in love toward them, and their ministry.  I will keep them in prayer, they are a beautiful family and ministry.  But love says the things that are hard to say.  As I am learning, to not say anything would mean I would be outside of love toward them.  Jesus said to turn the other cheek, but then He also stormed through the Temple and cleared it out of thieves.  There is a time and a season for everything.  His Love for the Father compelled Him to do so.  The slivers of insight about the underlying issues that the Lord revealed to me by Holy Spirit pretty much required gentle action on my part.

Moreover, I’m not so sad anymore, and also not so irritated in my spirit about it.  I feel like I’ve done my job, and done it with Love.  I leave the rest in His Caring Hands.

Amen,

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